This is my final.

This is my final.

This semester, I've really been struggling to get back to where I was when I had a tight rein on my day-to-day routine, my habits, and all the things I was interested in incorporating into my lifestyle.  I've gotten to a point where I realize what I need to do to get back to that place.  This was my final project for my drawing class.  I completed it in 3 hours, as opposed to the 18+ hours it would take me to do similar drawings a few months ago.  I really think it captures where I'm at in life right now.

I've been meditating for about an hour a day these past few months, and have started to have some pretty interesting revelations.

The Macroverse

Everyone I've met in my life lives in their own world.  Some worlds overlap, sometimes completely.  I live in my own world.  Yet I see a bigger picture in which all these worlds coexist, connected to one another to create a giant web of life and experience.  I call this big picture the Macroverse.  Each of these worlds exists as both a cloud and a node, containing a nebulous collection of common experiences and ideals, shared among its members, yet serving as a point of intersection between the pathways that link these worlds.  Many worlds are strongly connected to one another, some are faintly connected, and others are completely disconnected.  Lately I've been learning to not only see the worlds people live in, but where those worlds fit into the Macroverse, and how they influence it.  Often, when people are discontent about who they are and where they are in life, what they really have their eye on is another world in the Macroverse, and they just don't know how to get there.  It's simply a matter of showing them the path that links the two worlds.

The Voidness

When I peer into myself and am asked what I see, it's very much like peering at a sample through a microscope with an ever-increasing focus.  On the surface are my actions.  This is what people see with the naked eye, that determines who I am in their world.  For everyone who actively perceives me, a slightly altered version of me exists in their world.  Therefore, I have as many alternate selves as I have relationships.  On the cellular level, I find the ideas that govern my actions.  On a molecular level are my beliefs that shape my ideas, and on the atomic level are my experiences that form the beliefs that govern the ideas that determine my actions, which in turn create more experiences.  But between the nuclei and electrons of the experiences that make up the person I've become, there exists the Voidness.  This is the space between the space.  It's who I am when you strip me of my beliefs, my experiences, my thoughts, ideals, morals, opinions, habits, goals and actions.  This innermost part of myself is both the most beautiful and the most terrifying part of my being.  There, I see my true self peering back, and my world is suddenly saturated with the realization that I am being introduced for the first time to this pair of intensely focused eyes whose obsidian gaze has waited 24 years to be met.

The Triune Law

There are three sets of laws in existence: Human Law, Natural Law, and Supernatural Law.  I'm still discovering what each of these entails, but what I do know is that everyone has a veritable pie chart in their mind that reflects how much weight each of these laws carries in their life.  These three schools of Law do not carry equal weight in the universe.  Those who subscribe to the Supernatural Law have been known to break not only Human Law but Natural Law as well.  There are those who would follow Natural Law and in doing so can escape Human Law, but not Spiritual Law.  Those who desire only Human Law live in the smallest of worlds, as they necessarily must follow the other two, to exist in this universe; they are often completely unaware of the existence of Supernatural Law.  The primary school of Law a person follows can be determined through several factors, including the density of meaningful content in their speech, the motivation behind their actions, and the subject of both their attention and intention.  The Law each person seeks to follow directly influences the world in which they live in the Macroverse.

I had to write this down before I forgot it.

More to come as more is revealed.

-R.